KMU;
I hope you see this.
Truly, I don’t know how we ended up like we have from 2 years ago; good and bad.
You know from the start you captured my attention and all, and it seemed like nothing could tear us apart. I want you to understand though I don’t want to creep, or jump to conclusions, or even have stupid arguments. I just want communication, cause I can’t do this on my own. I know if it’s truly hard for you to open up it won’t be easy and I’m not asking for your life story in one day. I’m asking for your 100% trust like you had sad, and for you to be able to talk to me. What you have to say isn’t mean, it’s the make or break.
I’m a guy; I’ll be jealous, I’ll get the whole picture wrong, and I’ll be a dick sometimes. That doesn’t mean I want to control your life suffocate you, and hurt you. That’s exactly the opposite because I’m such a carefree, fun-loving, deep guy. You know that.
It isn’t hard for me to NOT be like every guy, but it’s getting harder every day for me to be myself.
I’m not the bad guy and neither are you, that’s for things like cheating and going behind someones back, etc. Right now it is us trying to get back on stable ground, and if you think I’m to close I want you to say “you know bro, back the fuck up.” or if you’re jealous, say “hey you know that bothers me.”
I feel like even when I’m trying not to be jealous or suffocating, or when I flat out am not your seeing me as this guy who’s just rush rush rush, trying to fall in love, trying to fuck you, asking for the whole world in one day. It’s not like, that it’s more like the small good morning texts, the phone calls that are quick, the bragging about one another, and just the smiles; knowing shit isn’t on thin ice.
COMMUNICATE, you’re my baby. my queen. and I’m trying to be your knight in shining armour but at this point I feel like i’m definitely drifting away from that guy neither of us wanted, and idk if your afraid of being hurt, or why your still getting mad about me being jealous when i’m not even mentioning it.
I don’t have a problem with you hanging out with ex’es/dudes, I don’t have a problem with not going a whole day without texting, and I don’t have a problem with not having a physical relationship every day. I have a problem with us not communicating so that hanging out with dudes doesn’t seem sketchy, and the texts that do occur are hi, nothing much, etc. and for you to believe in whatever way that i just want sex.
(fuck all my grammar)
I am here though boo, and I want to know what the fuck is on your mind :/ I am ASKING for the honest truth. why I feel like even when I’m changing back to that good guy you’re still stubborn and grouchy, and why I just can’t seem to make you happy for longer then a day. please. In some way, let me know, open up.
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Cross off the ones you’ve done.
1. had sex2. bought condoms- 3. gotten pregnant
4. failed a class5. kissed a boy6. kissed a girl7. used a little paper bag for lunch8. had a job9. slipped on ice10. missed the school bus11. left the house without my wallet/purse12. bullied someone on the internet13. sexted14. had sex in public- 15. played on a sports team
16. smoked weed17. smoked cigarettes18. smoked a cigar19. drank alcohol20. watched “The Breakfast Club”- 21. been overweight
22. been underweight- 23. had an eating disorder
24. been to a wedding25. made fun of someone for being fat26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight27. watched tv for 5 hours straight28. been late for work29. been late for school30. kissed someone in the rain31. showered with someone else- 32. failed my drivers test
33. ran a mile in less than 10 minutes- 34. been outside my home country
35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours36. gotten my heart broken37. had a credit card- 38. been to a professional sports game
49. broken a bone40. been unhappy about my weight- 41. won a trophy
42. cut myself- 43. had an STD
44. got engaged45. been on a diet- 46. tried out to be on a tv show
- 47. rode in a taxi
48. been to prom49. played in a drinking game50. stayed up for 24 hours or more51. been to a concert- 52. had a three-some
- 53. had a crush on someone of the same sex
54. been in a car accident- 55. had braces
- 56. learned another language
57. killed a bug58. been at a yard sale59. been to a japanese steakhouse60. wore make up61. talked to someone via webcam- 62. lost my virginity before I was 16
- 63. had my wisdom teeth taken out
- 64. kissed someone a different race than myself
65. snuck out of the house66. bought porn67. had a virus on my computer68. had oral sex69. dyed my hair- 70. gone skinny dipping
- 71. graduated from college
72. wore someone else’s clothes- 73. voted in a election
- 74. rode in an ambulance
- 75. rode in a helicopter
- 76. caught the stove on fire
77. got in a verbal fight78. been on vacation79. been on an airplane80. been on a boat81. had surgery82. kissed someone before I was 1483. beat a video game84. found something valuable on the ground85. made a survey86. stalked someone on facebook/myspace87. prank called someone88. been to a library outside of school89. spent over $100 shopping in one day90. cut my hair and hated it91. peed outside92. went fishing93. helped with charity- 94. taken a pregnancy test.
95. been rejected by a crush96. been suspended from school97. broken a mirror98. faked sick from school99. owned a pet- 100. been to six flags
